*hmmmm*.... I shouldn't have any feelings for him in the first place. What was I thinking right? Obviously he will go for someone who is much prettier and better than me. I guess it was silly for me to like him. Sigh. Yeah, in a way, I was kind of stupid, you can say that. Gotten the wrong signals and such. Gee, I should be ashamed of myself!
Whatever.. I shouldn't be dwelling on it too much. I guess it's no big deal for me. You know, sometimes I hate it when I have feelings for that someone, cos' in the end I know I will fail. But when it's the other way round, I simply have no feelings for that person even when he whole-heartedly likes me. In the end, I have to hurt his feelings by not accepting him. Usually, I only treat them as a friend, nothing more. That's it. Some even came begging at me, crying their hearts out.. but what can I do? I simply have no feelings for them! I can't force myself to like him cos' that will be cheating him and also myself definitely. I don't want to fake a smile, saying that I'm happy to be with him but the fact is, in my heart, there's nothing. No sparks or tingly feeling whatsoever. From this, it may seems like I'm a bad person, with no feelings. But I can't just accept that someone out of sympathy, can I?? It won't work out, I know. You get what I'm talking about right? Sometimes I got mixed up with my own feelings. Sheesh.
Okay, okay. I must stop now before it get into more details. School was great just now btw. Had PE. Lala and I played badminton at first, then we went on to play basketball with gfs which was a whole lot of fun. We had so many laughters and giggles here and there. Mostly was made by me. Hah. And the shoutings too. Yeah, me again. I don't know why but when it comes to PE, I will feel super hyper and enthusiastic! After that, some of the chinese girls asked us whether we want to play Captain's ball with them. We agreed since the more the merrier. And fun too. My team won. 6-4. Hmm. Not bad. Well, maybe because of the help of our PE teacher, Mr Soh. But the other team played pretty well too.
Bio lesson next and we had our practical. We did some experiment on onion rings which were placed in two solutions. Also, we did some test tube experiments on water, oil, ethanol and detergent. I did enjoyed myself shaking the test tube vigorously and observe the changes of the solution. :)
2 periods of Maths later on. Mr Chong went through the Specimen Paper 1 & 2. Did our corrections and stuff. The school bell rung and it was time to call it a day. I was pretty exhausted and tired which probably was due to the PE lesson. I had some muscle cramps and strains around my knee and my leg. My back hurts too. Oh well. Gonna get some rest and watch teevee later on. Take care. *hugs&kisses* :D
p.s// I just took a quiz in Facebook btw; Which colour best suits your personality? So yup, here's the results:
You are Yellow! You are a bright, happy person. You probably like peace and harmony, and just wish that everyone could be as simply joyful as you are. You love to spend time with your friends, and are probably the optimist in the group. Not to say that you're sickeningly happy all the time, you just tend to have a positive outlook on life. You have a bright, pleasant personality that draws people to you. You can light up a whole room! You sometimes get stepped on by reds, not because you can't defend yourself, but because you prefer not to. You just don't want to disrupt the peace. Your friends go to you when they need someone to encourage them or to help them look on the bright side. You can also be very insightful; you have a way of seeing the world differently, more perceptively, than most people. At the same time, however, you can be a little...well, you live in your own little world. Just like yellow can go with most colors, you can get along with most people - as long as they can stand your optimism! You, in a nutshell: Happy, peace-loving, bright, insightful, optimistic, supportive, loving, compassionate. YELLOW! :)))
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